P.S. I literally don't know what I'm doing

P.S. I literally don't know what I'm doing

P. S. I don't know what I'm doing. Image by Pamela Smerker

So here it is...the beginning. I am well on my way to being 47 years old, I am working on my 24th year of being married, we have with three amazing kids, I have been blogging for the majority of the past 14 years, and what have I learned? I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up. I used to get stressed about the fact that I didn’t have a career set in stone, that I bounced around and tried new things. The thing is, I have become quite the Jill of all trades. I tried to be like everyone else because I really admire people who know what their job is, and that's what they do for 40 years. I thought that is what I was supposed to do. I felt terrible about myself that I couldn't make it or that everyone was thinking, "there she goes again, changing up her job. Doesn't she know what she is doing with her life?" You know what, I don't know what I am doing, and life is too damn short to worry about what other people think. Am I happy? Do I make the people around me happy? Am I an all-around good person? YES, yes, I am! So what if I don't know what the future holds, none of us do.

Here is what I do know:

  • I am a people pleaser.

  • I need to fulfill my creative drive, or I get all down in the dumpsies (yeah, I like to make up my own words).

  • I love a good Rom Com (The Proposal is my favorite movie, and I have seen it approximately 5,987 times...ok maybe not).

  • I love putting in my earbuds and listening to music. Music gets me right in my soul hole (is that a thing? Well now it is).

  • “Inspire” is my favorite word in the English language. I love to be inspired and to hopefully inspire others.

  • I overthink everything.

  • When I think I know what I am doing, life smacks me upside the head with a 50 pound bag of Crunch Berries (is there such a thing, because yummm Crunch Berries).

This blog is my way of sharing super random things because I literally don't know what I am doing. Maybe it will make you laugh, or inspire those of you in the same boat. Perhaps it will make you overthink a thing or two, or maybe it will just make you go, huh?!

Welcome to P.S. I Don’t Know What I’m Doing!

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